only addressing this once.

alright listen...

i've written MANY posts for this blog.

majority of my words & thoughts are in my drafts bc being this vulnerable is scary !!!

I want to share my thoughts, emotions, and as much of me that I feel comfortable doing so that I can. the way I look at writing in this blog is kind of like writing in a diary.

I share a lot of my highlights on insta & youtube but very seldomly do I share what's NOT going right in my life/what getting me down. and I apologize for that. I just never want to seem like im seeking attention or sympathy bc I'm truly not lol I PROMISE. I think I just feel inauthentically known which I do take partial responsibility of.

my worst fear for this site is that it's all dark, dim, and drowning in the melancholy vibe. bc that's not me. in a sense I'm overcorrecting. I've put out the happy bubbly image for so long that I want to share the other stuff. I hope you don't perceive that as being fake bc when I upload my youtube videos... they r genuine and I am truly happy doing what I am doing/talking ab what I'm talking ab. this website is just me showing you guys another side to me.

I do struggle with depression and anxiety, I won't hide from that. but those things aren't me. I am happy and I do enjoy life!! there WILL be happy/inspirational posts to come but as of now I've noticed there's some things... a lot of things I want to get off my chest.

and here's the deal... I'm only going to address this once. this site is NEVER to bash anybody. to be petty. to make a big deal out of nothing or start drama. that's just NOT it. more importantly, that's just not me. if you are here, you are inquiring about my life and the events that occur and how I honestly feel.

so here is your official disclaimer... (before this site is even published!!!)

this is me, my life, my experiences, and my true feelings as they genuinely happen/have happened. I write my true feelings to connect with those who feel the same way or maybe who are even too shy to share those feels with the world.

I want to relate. I want to connect.

that's what this is. another side to me that helps to explain the whole of me that you see on the internet.

I love you all & the support you give. I just want to be vulnerable with y'all while simultaneously not having y'all think I'm crazy lol

thank u for reading this and I pray that y'all who have the spirit of God have the eyes to see & ears to hear the true message behind this post

sincerely,

saved